Back to One
I firmly believe that sometimes, if you want to know better about where you are going, you need to take a moment and reflect on where you have been. I haven’t had much free time lately, but the little I have had, I have been using to reflect on what started me along this journey and re-examine where I am.
If you have read my blog from the beginning (or if you have gone back to read the previous posts), you will learn that I didn’t come to my submissive self easily. I didn’t even start this blog out of my own accord. But with the experiences I have had with D/s have expanded my spirit. I have learned so much about myself and what I need. But I also have learned a lot about who I am and what I can offer to someone else.
I can definitely say that it has not been easy, but it has been rewarding. To finally get to know myself on a level that I was always so afraid to do. There have also been plenty of times of self-doubt and wanting to just stop the journey. But yesterday, I had the chance to have a great conversation with Daddy J (yes, we still talk from time to time). I was telling him about some of my doubts and concerns over whether I could do this, whether I really was meant to be a submissive. But after sharing my thoughts and fears with him, he said something that just calmed me down almost immediately. He simply said “You need a Dom, honey.” At that point it just clicked – I am who I am. I don’t have a choice in “who” I can be, but rather “how” to be who I am.
I’m very much looking forward to continuing this exploration – and I hope you will continue to join me.